I have moved to this blog.
I felt it necessary for a clean slate for my new endeavour...
It's called My Heart Show and that's exactly what it is...a show of the contents of my heart.
Come visit! (At least once!)

Beulah land, I'm longing for you,
And some day on thee I'll stand.
There my home shall be eternal.
Beulah land, sweet Beulah land.

I've been thinking a lot lately about the evil in the world that we live in. The evil that astonishes and shocks you, that paralyzes you for a moment because you can't even fathom what could put the thoughts together to perform such an evil act. The murder of a child, the abuse of someone you're supposed to love, the hate of a group "just because"...it boggles my mind.

I think of Heaven and the eternal peace that will be in existence there and it helps to dissipate the sorrow I feel...and then it doesn't. Because what about all the people that refuse to accept Jesus as their Saviour? What about the people who know Him and willingly walk away. They will never know the blessing of complete peace and happiness.

So what can I do? I can pray that God will reveal Himself to those people. I can pray that somehow they will come to know Jesus for themselves. But most of all, I can do. I can get out there and tell people about the good news of Jesus Christ. I can show through my life and my actions and my words that Jesus is to be praised and glorified; that He deserves the glory and the honour and the people's worship.

My prayer today is that God will use me for His glory, for His purpose. That He will take my human nature out of the way; blow my mind by putting me in situations I never thought I would be in, or opening doors I never thought I could step through. I pray that God will change my perspective, take me out of my comfort zone and allow me to be a blessing to His people.

God, today I take myself out of the way. Use me in whatever way you have planned for me. Allow me to be an effective tool for You to have. Show me the path I should walk and guide me in a way that I may be a beacon unto Your people.


I love you, Lord,
And I lift my voice.
To worship You,
Oh my soul rejoice.
Take joy my king,
In what You hear.
Let it be a sweet, sweet sound in  Your ear.

You are my God, there is no other;
You stand alone as Lord of all.
Giver of life, peace and prosperity.
Lord, You are Lord of all.


Here I am, once again standing in awe of the goodness of God and the blessings (undeserved blessings) that He gives me. And while He keeps blessing me, keeps giving me things that I need and even those things that I just want...I find myself longing for more.

Of course I want more of the spiritual things God has to show me. A greater connection with Him, a deeper love and appreciation for His grace and mercy without which I wouldn't be able to carry on. Just a general hunger to be in His presence and to live a life that is exemplary to those around me.

Then there are the natural things that I want. A new purse, wallet and watch; to lose all the weight I desire at the gym this summer; more clothes; straight As. (You know, the good ol' essentials!)

Then there are the things that I want, but that I'm so convinced God wants for me to. The things that I can't imagine living the rest of my life without. The things that will make me a better person, not only a better Christian.

I have many goals that I want to accomplish this summer, and the month of June is almost over...I have to get working! There are so many places I want to go to and people that I want to see. There are projects I wish to complete and books to read, formulas to learn and students to prepare for.

However, when I look at everything that I want to do, there's only one thing that is at the top of my list: develop a better relationship with God. I really do take to heart the scripture that says, "Seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you." I believe that my goals are the "these things" that God is talking about in His word. I don't think God sees anything as trivial. If it's something that's important to me, it's important to Him; as long as it's within His will.

So God, You are the most important thing to me right now. I want to get my relationship with You right so that I can continue on in the relationships I already have as well as the relationships I hope to form. I don't want to do anything out of your will, so I need your guidance.

I'll keep track of how my goals are coming along. I promise to begin every post with the lyrics from a song. The song will probably be the one that has been on my mind all day, or just a song I really love.

peace and love.

i've decided that i'm lucky.

i don't deserve anything that i have...but yet i have it.

friends, a home, an opportunity to get an education, family that loves and supports me.

i'm lucky.

but better than lucky, i'm blessed.

God is faithful.

He's constantly providing and looking out for me when i don't even look out for me.

He shows me love and never forgets me even when i forget Him.

i've decided that i'm lucky.

but better than lucky, i'm blessed.